Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Writing her own Script .........unending !


I find myself in a very special position that I am sure many of you would be envious of. Do you ever imagine having the super power of invisibility so you could eavesdrop on conversations others have about you?

Every morning, I look up at the sky, wondering if I’ll catch a glimpse of kindness there, but I don’t. The indifference of the still water in the pond, and the bareness of the sky need not reflect the indifference of people. I don’t want to look up to any unkind sky or any unfriendly person, searching for it to vouch for my readiness, my attitude and my honesty.  But every time I say this to myself, also I need to reassure about the self-confidence I have in my opinions and the unbiasness in them. I think and rethink about my perseverance of things before penning them down on a sheet of paper , because these are my thoughts which are engraved in me and I don’t want anyone to change himself/herself based on my views.

Someone said “Being Grateful is at the core of being educated”.

But what I see everywhere, is sore and ungrateful odd people, who have been grossly overeducated. I am trying to find whether this is my perception towards the world, or probably towards many of the people or is it that the World is changing.

I have been doing things that I like and I really don’t focus much about what other think about it but still that sometimes I don’t understand why so many people have to talk about so many others, when they are not yet self -aware.  How can someone be so very interested in someone else? This is my world and nobody has got a right to modify and manipulate it their way.

I am happy that all my writings come from my own experience, and hence if I have a strong opinion based on that, which you cannot certainly change it, because you know where it is coming from.

So, when looking at the future what do you see?  I would see a graceful educated women, sensible, caring and above all Grateful :) :)

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

The Venom Kiss


While I was watching “Rockstar” , suddenly a statement spoken by ranbir , tickled my mind for two minutes , rather more .:) , and guess wot was the statement :P “Chalo Kiss karte hai” and immediately I was head stuck , because it reminded me of you .

Yea , the day, I met you at the terrace of my house , and you asked me how much I weigh. Although In my mind you were super decent guy , and till that moment super unromantic also . But that day , you gave a little hint , that you are also sensitive, uhmm J ,well and then the romantic story started with passion and zeal for , :P :P KISSES.

It was a crazy experience to look for you , gaze you , rip you , with looks that were obsessed and wild for being with you .Wanting you like anything , and not letting you go for hours , was the ultimate goal of that time .Snatching and hiding you from the whole world was like a winning trophy. Riding the bike, having you at the back seat, and enjoying by your side in your sophisticated car drives, that time was certainly different. We didn't even left the coaching stairs, at 9 o clock, not morning, 9 PM ;) , just checking if the guard is not there. And saying: chalo kiss kartei hai ;)

Cannot say that those were the best days of my life, as life is still going on, but yes the craziest days for sure, lived life to its fullest with you, enjoyed, loved, killed and lived. Those days were so crazy that they actually made me crazy (its not rhythmic and difficult to comprehend also). Spent most of the time in making the best of you and worst of me . And what after that ….huhh ……:P that is not the prime topic now ;) 

That was the Venom Kiss .................destructive thoughts @their best :)