Escaped to be Trapped Again :-/

Before the dawn in the deadly hour

My soul just says I have no Power

The Pain spins from heart to head

and for a moment it says I am dead

And when the sun rises, it reminds me of you

the emptiness tinkles and my mind goes off

The Promise I made will stay forever

May remind to you sometimes or never

Happiness now seems unattainable and distant

the name in my palm is getting faint

Love is now an unknown word

Feels like it was never heard.................................

Ujjawal @destruction at its best  30/04/2012

Salvation!!!

I have moved into salvation

Telling you devil its not pretention

Wanting you is yet my wish

call me nuts or call selfish

its neither a fact nor contract

a mere attempt , a happiness pact

letting you free was though tough

Sky is bare and breeze is rough

There is no pain that cant heal

keeping the hope is another deal

Its sounds like a joke and has some pun.

Finally i moved into salvation. ;) ;)


Ujjawal
07/05/2012

A Walk to Remember!!

The path of life , show all the seasons

Sometimes its nice sometimes demand reasons

Its filled with surprises , never expected

Some frozen thoughts , some people attracted

It makes me think not once but twice

Is every decision great and wise?

And sometimes i say just let it break

together it all will make a trek

I am walking in the path , i never thought of walking

I am living a life , which was not even a dream before

People who were important previously ,are not even mere shadows

But who didnt exist yesterday , are inseperable now

When I look back , every experience seems worth

As it has mould me into , a person i am now

The walk of life is bright and hopeful

With all love and Aspirations , to a better tommorow :)

By: Ujjawal

19/04/2012

You are the devil , i am an angel

You have an illusion , of having no pretentions , no apprehensions

But remember the Devil , There is always an end to assumptions

My pen is writing the bitter truth of your lie

and now it will not stop until i die

You are the reason for my traumatic condition

An end to your answers , and end to my question!!

You Created a Mirage all around my world

But I grew up and broke it , Ohhh Devil 

I pity on you and your fakeness is broken

The girl is grown up and not playing with the love token

I was trapped in the Unknown web of spider

I was paralysed and no long a rider

Dont you dare read this and say I am a Pessimist

I have known it all , and i am not a Saddist

Your Memories will fade like colour in sun 

And Someone will bring again some more fun

I say it , to hurt you , to get you to the pain

So that your devilness shall wash away in rain

I assumed you to be my dream , my wish , my lover

Though you were in reality the Silent Killer

Hey Devil ,I will ,Yes I will Break your Vicious Circle

Just to make you see me dancing with some one else IN PURPLE.

You are the One!!!

The reason of my death

the destructor of my fate

I thought you are my pride

left with nothing by my side

Lately I made a wrong choice

and today i have a sad voice

the stains of my blood will remain

and will let you cry in vain

you made me cry , u made me sad

I wish i was happy with what i always had

I cant decide i cant defend

Now I am so weak , I cant even Pretend

I will live , i will fight and will stand again

But you , will have to pay for this disdain!!!

@Ujjawal 

Destruction @its peak !

The Loose Love

Writing on 5th January 2012 , at 5:00 am 
It is unbelievable and unimaginable to think that this date brought a lot to my life , alot of realization and a lot of pain too . Going back to 5th January 2010 , when i met the best person in my life who is today the worst person i have ever known. I never want to disclose you , what you have done , or what you will do to disturb my life , but yes today finally i can say that : I was wrong at my Choice.
I had never thought that my choice would be so wrong that i will have to cry for it , but yes I am and I will be regretting it forever . I don't know why i wasted 2 beautiful years of my life in efforts to know you , love you or to be with you .
Damn !!!!!!!!!!
It is so that today i can say that i loved a person who was not worth it and yea i hate myself for it , but also thanks to god , I have good enough people in my life who can value me and help me in standing back in the time when i am devastated.
Damn Guy !! I thought of destroying myself because of you , but today after talking to you hopefully for the last time , i realised my value , I know its too too late , but its okay , i will try to cover up for the pain i gave to myself.
Nothing more to it , and i wish to forget u forever by the next 5th january 
A SAD DAY

@Destruction :(
@Ujjawal ( Rarely in a pathetic mood) @ 5 am 5jan 2012 ( i will remember this always)

Writing her own Script .........unending !

I find myself in a very special position that I am sure many of you would be envious of. Do you ever imagine having the super power of invisibility so you could eavesdrop on conversations others have about you?

Every morning, I look up at the sky, wondering if I’ll catch a glimpse of kindness there, but I don’t. The indifference of the still water in the pond, and the bareness of the sky need not reflect the indifference of people. I don’t want to look up to any unkind sky or any unfriendly person, searching for it to vouch for my readiness, my attitude and my honesty.  But every time I say this to myself, also I need to reassure about the self-confidence I have in my opinions and the unbiasness in them. I think and rethink about my perseverance of things before penning them down on a sheet of paper , because these are my thoughts which are engraved in me and I don’t want anyone to change himself/herself based on my views.

Someone said “Being Grateful is at the core of being educated”.

But what I see everywhere, is sore and ungrateful odd people, who have been grossly overeducated. I am trying to find whether this is my perception towards the world, or probably towards many of the people or is it that the World is changing.

I have been doing things that I like and I really don’t focus much about what other think about it but still that sometimes I don’t understand why so many people have to talk about so many others, when they are not yet self -aware.  How can someone be so very interested in someone else? This is my world and nobody has got a right to modify and manipulate it their way.

I am happy that all my writings come from my own experience, and hence if I have a strong opinion based on that, which you cannot certainly change it, because you know where it is coming from.

So, when looking at the future what do you see?  I would see a graceful educated women, sensible, caring and above all Grateful :) :)