While standing alone in the balcony of my house, I felt a
rush of silence grabbing me in its darkness. Suddenly, the noises all around
converged into a single sensation and forced me to rethink of my decision of
choosing him as the best man of my life. I thought little of the past, and remembered,
how someday I was the most important part of his life, or maybe I used to think
so. My eyes were full of tears and my heart was flooded with an unusual pain
and trouble. I did not know whether I would ever speak to him or not, or if I spoke
to him, what will I talk about. He already lost his pristine image in my eyes
but still his image followed me sometimes in moments of life……….
For a few seconds, a thought transfixed me. I was compelled
to challenge the dilemma between my mind and my heart. For a moment, I was all away,
far away from the worldly matters. What is true love? Or does something like
that exist in this world, Is it a fiction, or a myth. I was under a situation
of dissonance and loss.
My belief was that the strongest bond between two people is Friendship,
A strange shield which covers them from the hay and storm of the outside world.
But, with the recent incidences and events, my-self proclamation of
understanding people was failing. I am still seeking answers to the purpose of love,
how selfless it is. For now, it is just directing me to a deep Isolation of
thoughts.
Ujjawal
09/10/12
