FEAR

What is Fear? How do we define it? Is it something embedded in us overtime or is it something that always stayed within? When I look back to my childhood, it reminds me of memories and instances which made me what I am now. Unlike most of the children in society, I was the daring one, and I love my parents for the fact that they never stopped me from taking risks, which eventually made me stronger and less vulnerable to depression and sadness. This was something which took away many fears from my life, fear of falling from a tree, fear of dying in an accident or fear of making my mother unhappy. I developed the habit of demanding straight and putting forward my thought of life. Doing all this was making me more and clearer about what I want in my life. Throughout these years, I learnt many things, but the best thing that I could sustain was Self Love. Although it seems, very selfish and mean, and portrays an image of a girl with lots of attitude, but this is one thing which helped me to stand in the days of instability.



By Self love I certainly don’t mean that I don’t love people around me –I really do , but with values in me ever since my growing days , I learn that I cannot provide a long term happiness to anyone around me , until and unless I am not sure of it. I don’t believe in creating momentarily happiness and this is something I love about myself.


I can very well say that, by now, the reader has very clearly made an image of someone who is a narcissist or who loves to flaunt about her, and I don’t disagree to it.


People say “Life is like a flowing river, and you shall flow in the directions it takes you to”. Some others read the tarot cards and talk about what is destined in their life. But my beliefs are different; I strongly feel that a person can guide his or her own life by his own experiences. In this way, he may take a few wrong decisions, but he will certainly not believe to be driven by someone else.


Like every other emotion in humans, Fear is a part of life and acknowledging it would certainly show us some direction to overcome it, but my only food for thought is can we give up our lives for the sake of fear, for the sake of society, or for that matter for the sake of others? Should we stop caring about our wishes and sacrifice to make others happy? I hope the reader and my experiences on the ongoing journey of life would fetch some reasonable answers to my questions.


Thank you for reading the anonymous blog.


Ujjawal @food for thought